I’ve been slacking here. It’s obvious when I look at my post count for the past few months. I just couldn’t seem to find anything to write about.
I was recently reading Half Assed: A Weight-Loss Memoir by Jennette Fulda. In it, she discusses how bloggers tend to disappear when their private lives aren’t going well. This hit home because this is what was happening to me.
Now, before anyone gets any ideas, let me clarify that my absence was mostly due to a mild bout of depression. There were no catastrophes or tragedies involved. I’ve had mild depression before; in fact, it tends to run in my family. My experience for my own life is that it doesn’t last long, doesn’t require therapy (though I have utilized this in the past), and doesn’t require medications. It’s simply a short-term funk that has no real reasons. Thankfully, the bout was short-term this time, too.
During this time, I found my motivation for healthier eating and exercising completely gone. Unfortunately, it even caused me to withdraw from a race I was registered for. Of course, all of this resulted in an increase on the scale, which I’m really not happy about. Then, of course, this caused one of those famous Catch-22 situations where I had no energy because I wasn’t exercising and I wasn’t exercising because I had no energy. I think we’ve all been there.
The motivation for exercise and eating healthy isn’t back, but I know it isn’t gone forever. I feel bad that this slack-off has caused me to be wholly unprepared for my first half marathon (I’ve only been running 4 miles per week), which occurs next weekend! But, even so, the first half will give me a benchmark that can only be improved upon for my second half marathon in July.
Next week, the Nate and I leave for a week long road trip to Williamsburg, Virgina. We will be making stops along the way, including the Corvette factory in Kentucky. Even though my half marathon will not be the success story I was originally hoping for, it WILL be a success story because I WILL finish it and enjoy the scenery along the way. It’s the vacation and seeing a place I’ve always wanted to see, with my favorite person, that I am looking forward to the most.
When I return, I fully plan on throwing myself back into the exercise and healthier eating mode (let’s be honest, who can do that on vacation? Not me.). It’s time to re-lose these 14 or so pounds that I regained and start lifting heavy weights. As I’ve been doing for quite some time now, the focus will be not on the scale but on the performance improvements and how I feel. The number on the scale is only a benchmark and not a very good one.
So, that’s where I have been. I’ll work really hard on getting back on track all around, including my blogging duties. In about two weeks, I will have a half marathon recap and hopefully some great stories and pictures to share.
By the way, I highly recommend reading Half Assed: A Weight-Loss Memoir. The author is witty and honest, making it easy for anyone who has struggled with food or weight issues to relate. If you don’t feel like reading the book, you can read the entire story, which the author chronicled on her blog.